Saturday, August 25, 2012

The Fiction of My Life...

Since childhood, we have always been fond of reading fiction or a fairy tale, where foolish wishes and unthinkable dreams seem to be coming true! In the end we realise that this actually was fiction. Out of such famous ones, I remember the excerpts from 'Breaking Dawn'. Bella at the time of her wedding is as nervous as never before - shivering, nervous, hyperventilating and senseless! And something like this did happen to me...


"One step at a time, I told myself as we began to descend to the slow tempo of the march.I could hear the murmurs and rustling of the audience as i came into view. As soon as my feet were past the treacherous stairs, i was looking for him. For a brief second, I was distracted by the profusion of white blossom that hung in garlands from everything in the room...

But I tore my eyes from the bowery canopy and searched across the rows of satin-draped chairs - blushing more deeply as I took in the crowd of faces all focused on me - until I found him at last, standing before an arch overflowing with more flowers. I didn't see my mother where she must have been sitting in the front row, or my new family, or any of the guests - they would have to wait till later. All i really saw was Edward's face, it filled my vision and overwhelmed my mind. His eyes were buttery, burning gold, his perfect face was almost severe with the depth of his emotion. And then, as he met my awed gaze, he broke into a breathtaking smile of exultation. And then at last, at last, I was there...

In that moment, my world which had been upside down for so long now, seemed to settle into its propoer position. I just saw how silly I'd been for fearing this - as if it were an embarassing exhibition. I looked into his shining, triumphant eyes and knew that I was winning, too. Because nothing else mattered but that I could stay with him. I felt like being at home."


And then, when we finally exchanged our rings, my heart, very slowly said....I do!! I realised that day the need of dreaming. I had dreamt of this...and when it came true, I was all ready for it..with a sheer nervvousness.

A fiction of my life has come true....my Edward has come into my life!

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Tale of Two Cities


I was sure that arrange marriages don't really mean life...they are infact a compromise to stand along with the society. And especially for them who never got a chance to prove to the society of their worth...

A way to go with the flow..meet, marry, produce! And the life goes on....Or the modern way of doing it is the specific time for the two species to fool around for some days and "get to know each other". When I started to go through such kind of experiences, I was convinced that people around me are trying to get me ready for meet, marry & produce!! ;-)

But this one.....changed my life forever! He stood out from day one..It began without us meeting. I was prepared to talk to him, like I gave all my interviews earlier! Confident that as it is, till now no relation has worked out..so why would this? So then there is no harm in chatting. I was wrong! Far across 379 Miles...someone was waiting to shake my beliefs! We connected, and re-connected. A different feeling altogether...don't know why, but this guy made me feel wanted! And we wished for more...

Time came soon when we had to decide upon our meeting. A sheer nervousness ran over my mind after a long time - What if he rejects? Had taken many before..but this one would pinch somewhere. And to find out the reason why it would pinch me...we landed in the city of cultural heritages - Indore! Well to be frank enough..within a visit of 2 days to this city famous for its constructions, the only building my mind could register was the rising turbulence in my head! All sorts of 'W' questions got registered, but my heart never bothered to answer even one!! With such kind of bearing...me along with my parents reached the destination!

After the higher authorities (parents) met and bonded...this guy walked inside the room! With every possible corner of my eye, i was trying to get a complete view of him. And he with all his might was trying to avoid my gaze. The turbulence increased ten folds when even after 2 hours the only word we had spoken directly to each other was "Hi"!! Time passed by and finally (and thankfully!!) we spent some time with each other that evening...His talks, his knowledge and his presence itself, mesmerised me to the extent that I was already in for the show..! I knew that moment what 'waiting for the right man' meant. That was the moment, I now realise, God wanted me to wait for always...

Now is the time when we aren't being able to stay away from each other for a few hours! But the distance takes us apart..May be this builds up our bonds, patience and tests the strength. Which eventually (I agree with you) will only increase our love! I now wait for the right moment in our lives, which will hold us together forever!

It is said that "A Successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person". I am sure you will make me fall in love with you 24*7....!!

Graveyards of Friendship!!

We walked the parallel ways, both leading to paradise.

 

Hand in hand through the maze,

over the reef, we landed in front of a devil.

 

It's shade so murky, it's straddle so huge...

not one could escape the vicious roots

no one could could conquer the expand of shoots.

 

We split, we hit, we shrunk and got drunk

We thought and we fought

But the apparent grass pierced us back..

 

The devil stands tall today, on the graveyard of our endeavour

It stuns and amazes the visitors

Oh! is this what is heaven?

 

We walked the sunlit days, both to end in peace....

hand away an extra mile

think that bond was just for a while...